I am alone, in this Hollow Square Room


I woke up and saw the dirty glasses,
I remember, we had fun in the night,

But then, he left, without even saying good bye,

And i am alone,in this hollow square room.

I met another and saw the twinkle in his eyes,
we talked, talked and talked, and had coffee too,
but then suddenly he told me that he think we not compatible,
And I am again alone, in this hollow square room.

The new day brought a new guy,

I knew, he is the one, but then he was not ready for commitment,

I decided to wait, Being silent and patient is how i show my commitment,
and then one day, he got another guy, who forced him in this relationship,

And I am left alone, in this hollow square room.

I don't know how i will break the walls of this room,

I don't know how to make someone fell for myself,

Now, sometimes i feel, I don't even know how to love.

Still my thoughts are pink, in this hollow square room.

Still looking......



Its ages since i have written here. Actually, was busy... busy in nothing... thats how life is too.. busy doing nothing..

I was so sure, that i would get someone, someone who would be mine. There are atleast three guys, who came in my life since last few months, somehow me as well as the other person felt too as if we are compatible. But still, things are not materializing.

Somehow, everytime before we get close, we move apart... dont know whats the problem. But now i am really frustrated because of this..

Any solution to my problem. How to hook up a good guy for the long term.

Another new year, Another year of resolutions.

The poetry, from me to you all....




Another new year, Another year of resolutions.


Another year of wait for the special person in your life.

Another year of meeting so many people, in hope of Mr. right.

Another new year, Another year of resolutions.


Another year of rejecting people, or getting rejected.

Another year of feeling sad, alone and dejected.

Another new year, Another year of resolutions.


Another year of writing stuff on this blog, in hope someone would understand me,

Another year of missing all friends, who have grown apart, because of me.

Another new year, Another year of resolutions.



I am sure, this year would be brighter, and happy,

This year, I am going to live me life on my terms.

I am HAPPY & GAY.....

I am your's only YUGYAG.



PS: Don't worry! I am not gonna be out ... I am a closet forever... :)

Merry Christmas


MERRY CHRISTMAS


'Saying I'm HIV+ is tough; saying I'm gay is tougher'

Hey Friends... dont worry, i have not become HIV +. This is just a title of a news article on NDTV website. This shows the plight of gay guys in hyderabad. But i think this is same in all parts of India. Here is the link of article for your view.

http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/saying-im-hiv-is-tough-saying-im-gay-is-tougher-42491

The article talks about a person, who got married and has a twelve year old daughter, still his preferences remain same... MEN...

I know how difficult it is not to get married in this society. After all i have gone through the same plight. But i also know how difficult it is to remain prisoned in the institution called marriage, when one is not really attracted towards girls. I am sure, that one day, gay guys would have right to choose, and they would not be treated as animals, rather worse than animals in the society.

Underwears...

NICE UNDERWEARS...... FOR FETISH


1. Transparent Undies

2. Butts & Undies


3. Ouch... Pouch....

4. String Bikini




5. Ball Sac
6. Macroman... see the dick

7. Bikini Undies
8. Golden Undies..
9. Normal frenchie sorts in different colours..

10. Another transparent undies

Humourous Status Messages on Planet Romeo


Hey guys, here are few hilarious stauts messages on planetromeo.com . This is just for humour and not an attempt to make fun of any particular person.




" m not the slut" Gay Guy
"m Slut" GAY GUY

"Erstwhile blueline bus conductor" GAY GUY ... few colonies are still left.. can you guess?



" I M Best, I seek Bestest " Gay Guy... unsatisfied....




"Straight" Gay Guy... ???


JUST JOCKEYING....

i love the guys in this jockey ad... naked men in undies :)

Milestone of my Gay Life - Gay Party

Picture is downloaded from internet. I do not know any of these guys. All rights of this picture are with said company or people only. Not with me.




So finally, this closet friend of urs is opening up... I told you how i m being comfortable with myself, and my sexuality. I also told you about this circle of gay friends, who are friends and who are kind of my support system.. :)


I spent the evening with them. And then in the night around 11 o clock, went to AI, Saket MGF Metropolitan Mall, where a private party was organised. The entry was free, so excitement was much more ( LOL) . I felt very comfortable as i was with my friends. I was not at all scared of other gay guys. Nobody pounce on me with his dick :) It was just like a normal party, or a normal pub, except that you can see lot of guys, doing close dance with other guys.

All guys were so friendly, most of the guys knew each other. They were meeting each other with a hug or a kiss. It was looking quite cozy... :) nothing obscene... just comfortable..

We could also see few girls, they were either with their best gay friends or they were with boyfriends, we were not able to make out.


I was there only for one hour, and perhaps i didnt see lot of action there.. Still i would say, i was happy being there.. seeing so many normal gay guys... no drama queens, no pancy stuff.. just normal gay guys... :)


Hope one day, Yugyag can organise a gay party for all of you.. :)


Till then enjoy gaydom...... It feels nice to be comfortable with your sexuality.

GAY FRIENDS


Hey All,

As you all know i am a discreet guy, but for past few months, i am becoming comfortable with my sexuality and started hanging around with my gay group of friends. These guys are really nice, and we share such a chemistry.
I was always afraid in being company of more than one gay friend. It felt so awkward. I always thought that the other guy wud see me as a slut. But now ( may be with age or because of me being comfortable about my sexuality) i am very comfortable with other gay guys.


I am not drooling over guys when i am in their company. They are not touching my dick or butts anyways. They are just like any of my other friends.


Its a great feeling, which can only be experiences and not written in words.


I Pay gratitude to all my gay friends. I LOVE YOU ALL :)

parents...

Read this story on one of the profiles on planet romeo.. WOW... there is one guy which is more than just sex..

An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 year old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, “What is this?”

The Son replied “It is a crow”.

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, “What is this?”

The Son Said “Father I have just now told you “It’s a crow”.

After little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, “What is this?”

At this time some ex-pression of irritation was felt in the Son’s tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. “ It’s a crow, a crow”

A little after, the Father again asked his Son The 4th time, “What is this?”

This time the Son shouted at his Father, “Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many time“IT IS A CROW’. Are you not able to understand this?”

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page, When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary:-

“Today my little son aged three was sitting with on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window, My son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him al 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child”.

While the little child asked him 23 times “What is this”, the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

So…..

if your parents attain old age, do not repulse them or look at them as a burden, but speak to them a gracious word, be cool, obedient, humble and kind of them. Be considerate to your parents. Form today say this aloud, “I want to see my parents happy forever. They have cared for me ever since I was a little child. The have always showered their selfless love on me.They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make me a person presentable in the society today”.


Say a prayer to God, “I will serve my old parents in the BEST way, I will say all good and king words to my dear parents, no matter how the behave.

Being Gay is not about having sex with other men.

Go on planet romeo and behind every status of friends or chat is hidden agenda of having sex. Yes, having sex with men is the something which distinguishes us from hetrosexual males. But this does not mean, this is the only thing. This may be the only thing which is being seen by the world. Lets see how a gay guy is different from hetrosexuals, apart from craving of dicks and assholes rather than pussies.

1. A gay guy is more sensitive towards his environment, be it family, friends, or other issues close to his heart.

2. A gay guy is looking for love more than anything else. He is looking for his acceptance in this world, atleast in the heart of his fellow gays... But what he gets is just an hunger for sex... till the time he loves to suck dicks, he is accepted. Why old guys on PR always try to be sugar daddies... Cause they can not find guys of their age.. as all are looking for only one thing.. fresh meat.

3. Gay guy is more insecure, as he is not sure about what would happen to his old age. Whatever said and done, traditionally, marriage has been a security for a man for his old age. Wife can cook and take care of his domestic chores whereas he can focus on his work. But a gay guy has to play both roles which is not only difficult but it also raises the fear of loneliness.

4. Gay guy would love to have lots of friends with whom he can share his thoughts and brainstorm. Gay point of view can be explained to other gay people only. Its difficult for straight men to understand the perspective.

6. Gay guy is not just about dicks and assholes. Its about a mindset. Its about a way of thinking. Its about being gay, which can be understood by all my other gay friends only.

HAPPY HOLI


WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY HOLI!

Holi is festival of colours. Festival of joy,happiness, peace, friendship and all good things in life. But unfortunately, this nice festival too has not brought any cheer in my life. I am not cribbing, i have accepted my life as it is.. A LONELY GAY LIFE.... but still, somewhere deep down in your heart, i wish... i wish.. for someone who is there for me. On whom i can depend on.


There was a guy in delhi, whom i met just before moving to mumbai. It felt as if we can go around for long.... but then i moved to mumbai and somehow lost the touch.... I do not know what is destined. I do not know what will happen tomorrow.


But to all, who have their partners... a very HAPPY HOLI... and to all who does not have their partners... wish you get someone special in your life soon....


I would like to open something like gayalone, a society where people can find friends.. it would not be only sexual gratification but also the emotional gratification that gay guys look forward to... Hope we all find our emotional anchors one day...

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY



Hey guys..
wish you a very happy valentine' s day!!!!!

Why am i always late in wishing you all... I really dont know.. but yes i am late. But on the other hand, whats so happy about this valentine's day.

By just celebrating this day, would we gay guys, find true love of our life. Would we be liberated enough to tell our true identity to all. Would we stop behaving like true hipocrates.... Would we stop making fun of other gays in front of our straight friends. Would we stop oogling at other guys when we are with our own guy. Would we stop behaving like sex maniacs, with a perpetual hard on.

Answer to all this is NO.. two capital letters.. NO..

still a very happy valentine's day to all.. :)

Hope my post gives u enough material to think......

Strange are ways of love

the latest song of Ishqiya " dil to baccha hai".... "heart is a kid"

yes, actually if you are in love, you really become a kid. How so ever old you are. I feel embarassed drooling on a person at the age of 32. But can not help it. I am in love. I dont even know if the other person likes me or not. But atleast i m in love and thats what matters as of now.

Lets see how it goes. Guys pray for me...

M drunk and in love

Its 2.53 am on 7th feb.. i am drunk cause i finished a quarter of smirnoff . I drink it with minute mail pulpy orange ( dude both these brands have not paid me) LOL..

OK i m in love again.. i think i can share it with you guys.... it is the same guy i talked abt it last post. I m meeting every day since last three days. but he is married, he is egoist, and he does not like me. Still i love him. Love doesnt take acceptance of other person, it just grows.. and thats what is happening currently. I am getting sucked in the feeling called love.. And i am loving it. The best part is that the other guy doesnt even know if i m in love with him.

we have never talked anything serious.. we just kissed once, that too on road.. but i still love him.. i dont know, how these feelings get created.. but i know i love him.. Lets hope, things go right. But i dont think so, he would love me..

He is telling me, that i have lost weight.. and i look like a HIV positive.. I know i have lost 4 kgs since i m in mumbai.. but i still dont look bad..

This guy has told me that if in one month i dont put on some weight, he will stop seeing me. I have started eating egg every night, and bananas to gain weight.

What u guys say.. i am actually drunk right now.. dont know what i m writing.. still i wanted to write..

so bye for now..

Today we say at Mc Donalds in ANdheri west, it is a cruising point, but as we both were together, no body approached us.

hmmmmmm something is brewing...

Yes... to tell you all something is brewing... almost a month since my last post here.. and yes life has been very hectic.. not only work wise.. where i am working my balls off with a sucker as my boss..

But also in my personal life... i m trying to make as much as i can of my mumbai trip.. But unfortunately nothing is coming up yet.. I met someone today.. seems promising.. but he is a married guy.. and looking for a friend... dont knw what exactly it means.. but i m ok for it..

Lets see how it goes...

HAPPY NEW YEAR - 2010

WISH YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR...




WISH YOU A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR...
Second Picture of 2010 is Courtesy http://adda4gayarts.blogspot.com/

Bollywood HOTTIES..

SHAHID KAPUR

KUNAL KAPOOR

JOHN ABRAHAM
I find this pictire, as the most sexiest picture of any bollywood actor ever taken. Sliding of undies only increase the sex appeal of John. Smooth, shining body can attract any guy...


All these pics come in Delhi Times. It looked more like a gay magazine, with so much flesh in a normal newspaper.. ENJOY







Any romantic relationship is based only on SEX!


Its a strong statement that i am making.. but i do believe in it. In any romantic relationship, sex is a very important part.


We have heard often that gay guys want nothing but just to suck the stick and screw the other's hole. But dont hetro guys look for the same too.. just to plough the hole of their girlor rather any available bloke... Why we have so many cases of rape. Sex is a NEED, a physical need of human beings and any romantic relationship grows, if both partners are satisfied, emotionally, intellectualy and sexually.... as well..


Haven't we heard of gigolos satisfying middle aged aunties' sexual desires. Havent we heard of red light areas massaging the male egos hanging below the belts... then why only gay guys are being targeted for carrying their dicks in hand to fill any mouth or asshole available.


Its normal for any man to satisfy his sexual urge and there is nothing wrong if a gay guy looks for sex on various online forums. If the guy dates another guy which ends in the bed, there is nothing wrong in it.


Lets see, how many guys turn up to have sex with me now ;)


Hey my boyfriend in making... dont worry, i m not having any fun here in mumbai.. Its pretty boring just working...



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