Ten Reasons why he just stopped talking !




Why he just stopped talking ???


Don't you think, this seems line which we all can identify with. But why? Why this happens..
HERE ARE TEN REASONS AS PER ME... 
 Feel free to add more....

1. Its a waste of time to talk any more. No benefit.. neither sex.. nor emotional bonding.
2. He has taken advantage of me, I loved him so much... and he just used me for physical pleasure.

3. We just grew apart. Some how we both don't feel the need to talk to each other.

4. When i talk to him, i miss all the good times we spent together. Lets stop talking.. and save myself from this hurt.

5. I got to know, that he is not only talking to me, but also with ten other guys. Its better to give him time for other nine guys.

6. Everytime I talk to him, he asks me favours - monetary as well as others.

7. I miss him too much, but my ego doesnt let me talk to him.

8. Why should i talk to him, what has he given me till date...except hurt..

9. I miss him so much.. if i talk to him.. i will miss him more.

10. He doesnt understand me.. its better stop talking...

Gay Poetry - my life..


in rahon mein tum mujhe aaj fir dekh lo
koi mujhe inhi raston par fir chod gaya
woh kehte the pyaar karte hain humse
na jane yun pal bhar mein woh pyaar kahan kho gaya
itne bure hum nahin yeh hum bhi jaante hain
fir bhi kyun jeevan hamara yun tanha ho gaya

इन  राहों में तुम मुझे आज फिर देख लो 
कोई मुझे इन्ही रास्तों पर फिर छोड़ गया 
वोह कहते थे प्यार करते हैं हमसे 
ना जाने यूँ पल भर में वोह प्यार कहाँ खो गया 
इतने  बुरे हम नहीं, यह हम भी जानते हैं 
फिर भी क्यूँ जीवन हमारा यूँ तनहा हो गया 

My blog completes 4 years... WOW




Ok Guys...First thing first.. i just realised my blog has completed 4 years now... so happy birthday to my blog.. and what a nice gift, but to know that there have been more than 30K visits to my blog till date..

 Today I logged on to my blog after a long time, and got to know that blogger.com has come up with nice tools.. ( cum on... u naughty guys.. not that tool) but tools to track visitors to your site.. and WOW.. i m impressed..My blog is registering almost 100 footprints on daily basis.

Thats a nice achievement. so here is screenshot of my visitor stat.. see how my blog has grown in last four years..


Health for gay guys

Hey All,

We all are getting old.. atleast I am.. I am 34yo now.. and last month when i got my tests done.. My cholestrol was on the wrong side.. My doctor has asked me to start walking. But who has time. I am so busy in finding my life partner.. which i am so sure, that i will never get.

In the middle of this whole busy schedule.., today one of my friend, shared a link with me. This is very interesting, as this gives complete details for immunization program.. vaccination man.... something like polio drops.. Ha! Ha! Ha!

To be serious, its very important for all of us to be healthy, specially US... GAY GUYS.. who are so prone to diseases because of sex with so many partners... . and also who have to live alone in life.. So..its better to be safe and healthy.

Here is the link for all you people.. Hope it helps you

http://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/preview/mmwrhtml/mm6104a9.htm

Luv You All...

( For you my friend.. hope you smile seeing this post.... this is for you only..)

Court Strikes Down Ban on Gay Marriage in California


Excerpts from an Article in New York Times.. Shared by one of my readers in USA. Thanks Dear Faqir for sharing this article.

LOS ANGELES — A federal appeals court panel on Tuesday threw out a voter-approved ban on
same-sex marriage passed in 2008, upholding a lower court’s ruling that the ban, known as Proposition 8, violated the constitutional rights of gay men and lesbians in California.

The three-judge panel issued its ruling in San Francisco, upholding a 2010 decision by Judge Vaughn R. Walker, who had been the chief judge of the Federal District Court of the Northern District of California but has since retired. The panel found that Proposition 8 — passed by a vote of 52 percent to 48 percent — violated the equal protection rights of two same-sex couples who brought the suit. The proposition placed a specific prohibition in the State Constitution against marriage between two people of the same sex.

But Tuesday’s 2-to-1 decision was much more narrowly framed than the sweeping ruling of Judge Walker, who asserted that barring same-sex couples from marrying was a violation of the equal protection and due process clauses of the Constitution.

You can read the complete article at this link

love me... my soul.. me as a person



He has just left, completely satisfied..leaving trail of semen on my legs, some dry saliva on my lips, his unique fragrance still on my body... and a Rs.100/- note as a tip.

I know he loves me, loves me more than he loves his wife, and his boyfriend. He loves me, because he loves my body.

He loves to use me as he likes. He loves me when he put two fingers in my dry ass..he loves me when he bites my lips, he loves me when pinches my nipples, he loves me when he pulls my hair and put his teeth on my neck. He loves me when i get hurt. But he loves me.

He has left, satisfied... with few visible scars on my body, and few invisible scars on my soul. He never says that he loves me. He always say that i am his slut. He loves to call me his "randi", hindi word for slut. He gets a high, when he knows that i need him more than he needs me.

But then, is it really so. Perhaps yes. I still think, one day, he will tell me, he loves me. He loves me more than his wife, more than his boyfriend. He loves me real. He loves me not just for the sake of it. He loves me not like any other client of me. But he loves me as another person, he loves me as a guy, with heart, as a guy with soul.

Hope... He loves me one day.


" this is a write up, dedicated to all the masseurs of gay spas.. who are gays.. but who are people with heart.. I met one such masseur today.. will let you know what happened between us in some later post".

Gay Cruise


This is the advertisement for your information that how much advancement LGT community have made. Though there is no cruise like this from India, but I hope one day i join this cruise with my boyfriend... or may be my boyfriend waits for me at the end of this cruise..

These details has been forwarded to me by one of my reader, who works on this cruise... He has shared quite few stories with me.. if possible i will share with you all as well.



Please share your stories, if any of you have been to this cruise...

Looking forward to more of interaction with my readers.

yours only...
Yug yag

Same-sex divorce options explored


Dear All,


This news item has been shared by one of my readers from Canada, for you all. You may be interested in this news of divorce option for same sex marriages. But what about the countries like India, where same sex marriages are not allowed at all.

Thanks Faqir, for sending me this news item... for the awareness of such issues.

"

The Harper government is considering how to make divorce possible for same-sex couples who had to come to Canada to get married.

Thousands of gays and lesbians who could not marry in the country where they live have travelled to Canada seeking a legal marriage. But Canada's divorce laws don't allow people who haven't lived in Canada for at least a year to end their marriage.

In a statement to CBC News, Justice Minister Rob Nicholson said he would be "looking at options to clarify the law so that marriages performed in Canada can be undone in Canada."

Earlier Thursday, Prime Minister Stephen Harper insisted his government doesn't want to reopen the debate over same-sex marriage, despite newly-revealed legal arguments from a federal lawyer that a same-sex marriage performed in Canada is not valid if it isn't recognized as legal in the place where the couple lives.

"When we first came to office we had a vote on this issue. We have no intention of further reopening or opening this issue," Harper said at a shipbuilding announcement in Halifax, adding that he did not know the details of the government's submission in this case.

At a second shipbuilding event in B.C., the prime minister reiterated his position, saying the law "recognizes same-sex marriage in Canada and the government is not going to reopen that issue."





my blog stats.....


Hey all, its four years now since i am writing this blog. today there are 32 subscribers to my blog.. and below are the statistics of last four years.... Yes this motivates me to write more.. for myself... for you all..







me myself yugyag




Why? Why? Why am i so emotional...


Why I always feel that world will be functioning as per me. World is not my slave... who will obey my orders.


Why i feel, that if a guy is a gud friend.. he wud always remain so.. And yes the biggest stupidity is.. when the guy says,


"I love you so much.. that i am scared of loving you, so now i will neither talk to you, nor meet you, cause I love you the most.."


Dont you think its the biggest stupidity, foolishness.. And specially when it is coming from a guy, whom i really like very much.. just as a friend.. cause he is gonna get married soon.


I also read a very nice thought on one of the PR profiles.. Its so true.. specially for me...


There's always a little emotion behind every 'I don't care'; intent behind every 'just kidding'; and a little pain behind every 'all's good'. Therefore, if you cannot understand my silence, you would never be able to understand my words.....

YUGYAG Reader's feedback



I received a mail from one of my readers on 20th December, as in response to my write up "Life has become fun" It was really nice to read such feedbacks. I have been in touch with this reader, through emails now. And its great to know him, and interact with him. It always results in exchange of nice ideas and mutual learning. I am uploading his mail post his approval only.



Thanks for your mails M al - Fakir... I really like interacting with you. This couplet is for you meaning, even travelling unknown paths, people can become friends.. but you are just a part of my soul, who got separated from me long back...


रास्ते अनजाने हो, फिर भी मुसाफिर दोस्त बन जाते हैं

तुम तो मेरी रूह का एक ज़र्रा हो जो कल शायद मुझसे जुदा हो गया था



So sweet of you for updating the blog. Thank you for a nice write up and in sweet, emotion charged but simple language.


A very moving narration. But it maintains the romance and sanctity of gay love. I cannot convey to you my feelings about this brief and matter of fact story except that you stirred a lot of memories.

Sitting thousands of mile away in Canada I was moved by your story and desires. Had you been here near about I would have met you to exchange experiences, share frustrations or disappointments and thus lighten our burdens that erode the soul and make life bearable. I was reminded of a Persian couplet but I do not know if you know the language. If I am able to render it suitably in English I will send it to you.


I hope you succeed in finding what you are looking for - a sincere, honest, selfless and loving companion and live happily ever after.


- M al-Fakir, Canada

MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS..

WISHING ALL MY READERS

A MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Enjoy your christmas.. with these pictures...

Hope the next year brings prosperity and happiness in life of all.. See you guys in next year..










And yes, please comment.. cause it shows that you are reading my blog.. and i also get motivated to post more :)

Life has become fun..






Life has become fun.. yes..

Today I met a friend..he is a friend.. just a friend.. but fine, we planned a sex date today.


We met, he lit candles in the room, played romantic songs.. and just made love with me.. It was not sex, it was pure love. We only did above the waist.. nothing below..but it was love. We had a lip lock, licked each other's tongues, licked each others arms, arm pits, wen the tongue touched nipples, back, nose, eyes, ears, foot, butthole... It was awesome..


It was an emotional moment for me. But then he also told me that he made a bet with one of our mutual friend, that he will make me crazy for him, so that i would be forced to say "love you". I did...and believe me, it was really true.. because he didnt treat me like a sex toy. He did it, to give me the satisfaction. Most of the guys i have met, are generally want me to give them satisfaction. The guys i have met, are generally selfish... But then this guy, treated me like a guy, he showed genuine interest in me, and my body.. somehow he touched my soul.. and i thank him for it.


I dont know, when i will get my real lover, but now i think i have realised to enjoy such one night stands as well. Its better not be emotional, just enjoy, and forget it. But in such one night stands, i never get hardon. I never get too excited, Because deep down in my heart what i want is different... i want someone with whom i can get up in the morning. I can take care of him and he takes care of me. I dont want just a one night stand. But then sometimes, just for a body touch... i do one night stand as well.


This year is gonna end soon.. hope i get my stable guy soon...


* this post is dedicated to one of my reader from allahbad, who got in touch with me, and asked me to write my experience on blog, as i didnt update it since long now . So here it is for you my sweetheart. I love all my readers. And thanks for reading my blog. If you want to get in touch with me, you can send me a mail at sdelhilove@gmail.com

THIS IS ME... just few lines..



sometimes serene..

sometime stormy..

sometimes looking forward just for sex...

sometimes looking for a stable relationship...
sometimes thinking.. there is no point of logging on PR any more.. it makes me more hollow.. sometimes just logging on PR as a habit..
Sometimes waiting for the right soul in my life..

sometimes thinking there is no right soul waiting for me anywhere..
THIS IS ME....

Hope someday my life gets more stability, once i get a soulmate.. who is mine.. completely mine.

Guidance.... given for a newbie gay :)



Hmmm.. today i saw a status message of 23 year old guy.. which was like this...


"guys m new here...so guide me..i need guidance"


I replied him as below... any suggestion...


guidance for what dude.... its upto u.. i wud suggest you to be little cautious... but then again its ur choice... to be cautious or not..


generally ppl dont distribute their phone numbers to all... be discretionary on that..


have heard a lot about ppl coming to ur place and picking things up.. so dont ever take anybody to your house if u have not been chatting with him since long.


u r 23.. if u r mature enough to realise ur sexuality.. u r mature enough to judge people as well.


ENJOY SEX :) and ENJOY being gay..


all the best.. for this adventurous journey with lots of ups and downs...


Homosexuality in birds.... made me think



Today, i read a report about homosexual nature of birds and this was written in bold....



Same-sex pairs of monogamous birds are just as attached and faithful to each other as those paired with a member of the opposite sex.



You all can read the complete report " Homosexual zebra finches form long-term bond "


But it forced me to think... As humans, are we really worse than birds, when it comes to homosexuality. Yes, i agree... times are changing. Homosexuality doesn't mean just about physical sex, its about finding a right mate for the life time.. its about the right kind of a person to spend your time with, to spend your life with.



Still, for almost 80% of homosexual people, it just boils down to SEX...



PLACE is one of the most important factor for meeting homosexuals. Why? becuase place ensures sex....



When... when will we all realise that homosexuality is not just about sex.. yes sex is a very important part of it. But it means, much more than that.. it means being with a person, who understands you better... it means being with another guy, who thinks like you only.. and with whom u can better identify yourself.. .it means being yourself.. without thinking what the women wants.... it means standing for the things I like.. and not just doing what my woman expects from me..



Homosexuality for me is being MYSELF....



what about you?




Lucknow has good looking guys.. :)


Hmm.... i love my friends. They are really so considerate. One of my friend who has gone to lucknow has text me that there are some good looking guys in the gomti market of lucknow. Though, he was not sure, if those guys were available or not. As you all know, how desperate I am for a constant guy in my life, I replied to him that he should find someone for me from Lucknow.. and yes he is free to try them before finalising them for me.

LOL..

Jokes apart.. I have never been to lucknow. But even on PR there is a guy from lucknow who became my friend. He seems decent... Does lucknow really have some good looking guys.. Do I have a follower from Lucknow on yugyag, who can confirm about good looking men of Lucknow.

What about delhi. Why delhi is facing this summer drought or is it just me? No decent guys, to fell in love with...

Me.. and the crying baby.. started again..

so untill next time..

SEE YA ALL.. and ENJOY wherever you are...

Me...Myself...


ok..

I know, this is a gay blog, but then this blog is all about me, what i think, what i feel. And hence i have all right to write anything in it. So let me write something, which is serious. Which affects my life. I don't know, if same problem affects anybody else too.

But, I am not going through a great phase. Actually, this is cyclical. It happens all the time. I don't know if this is something to do my sexuality or this is just a psychological problem.

I am depressed, not exactly depressed too. But i need some exciting work to work on. I need a great stimulant. I feel as if all the world is making fun of me, and that makes me sad.

I am too ambitious. I make so many plans, but then somewhere down the line, the plans do not work, as per my expectations. The problem is in plan, or in the execution or just in me. I am not able to resolve this.

I know my weaknesses.

I need lots and lots of unconditional love. This problem is affecting my professional life too. Cause i need this from my professional environment, which is not possible in today's times. It is the most ideal situation, which anybody would love to work in. But my problem is, I just can not .. just can not take any pressure, if i know that my boss or my colleagues do not like me. I need to be part of the group. My association need is too high. And i don't know how to take care of it.

As of now, i have left my job.. or whatever freelancing work i was doing. I am not feeling happy. I know i have lots and lots of potential But then everything wasted because of my emotional status.This problem is affecting my career, my future.. and unfortunately, i am not able to do anything about it.

I dont know if any of my reader has solution to this problem.

Gay Date ended in embarrassement


You just can not imagine the embarrassment i had to go through today.

I met a guy, a old time friend. But we met for a sex date today like after four years. We didn't want it to be sex sex date sorts.. But we both wanted to be close, physically. When i reached his place, he was sleeping on his bed. I asked him, he would like a good massage and he got ready .

I asked him to turn on his stomach, and started with his lower back, gentle long strokes that go upto his neck. I was doing this while he was still wearing all his clothes. My hands were inside his shirt for doing such a massage. Gradually, I opened all buttons of his shirt, and removed it. Now my strokes started from his lower back, his neck , and until i moved my hands on his nicely built arms and then i hold his hands, like this i was lying flat on top of him.

Gradually i pushed down his jeans, and start my strokes from his butt crack. My friend's body is so soft. I was loving the long slow strokes on his body, and he was loving it too. Gradually i removed his jeans, and then i kneaded his butt cheeks. They were so juicy. I have not removed his underwear, but my hands were inside it, touching his butt hole, and going even below... holding his balls. He was definitely on a high... because i was getting slow moans from him. I give a nice massage on his butt crack, gradually putting pressure on his butt hole. I also hold both his butt cheeks together, i was sure he was enjoying me playing with his body.

Then i massaged his legs. I squeezed each foot before giving his legs a nice massage.

Gradually, i removed his undies. Now my strokes were starting from his legs and went uptill his neck, all the way up his arms till i hold his hand. He was having a very nice time.. and i saw his hard dick below him.

I removed all my clothes but undies. I wanted it to be a tease. I turned him on his back, and started on his chest, and nipples. I sat on his stomach, with his dick touching my butt hole. I hold his face with both my hands, and squeeze it with my hands. I put pressure on his head, which he loved. i put my fingers in his ears. Now my mouth was on his, and we were eating each other's lips.

He pushed my head down, and i took his throbbing tool in my watery mouth. Still my one hand was on his chest, stroking hairs on his chest, and putting my finger in his tummy hole. ..he was on seventh heaven. He was so excited after this dry massage that he just wanna fuck my mouth like anything.

He has a decent size cock but little thick for me. He suddenly started fucking my mouth like never before. His strokes were pretty hard for my throat, and his dick was long enough to reach back of my throat. He was all sexcited, and so was I.

And then suddenly, I PUKED....Puked on his dick, on his trim pubic hairs,as well as his stomach.

He felt warm liquid on him, and he asked... " i didn't come".. i was like... what to do.. i said "no. you didn't".

But then i didn't know how to tell him what happened. He opened his eyes, and thank God, he got the dirty smell, and asked me. "You puked?" I nodded my head in affirmation, and then tried collecting all that i deposited on him, in my hand and rushed to the bathroom.

I used lot of tissues to wipe him, i even wiped him with a soap.

I was really embarrassed. For sure, his dick went limp.. And our sexual enjoyment ended then and there.

Still he was very very sophisticated, not to say anything to me. He behaved in a very gentlemanly manner.

This was so funny. I never puked before ever.. but perhaps, i never took any dick so deep in my throat.

I hope, i will be able to deep throat him next time easily without throwing again.

13000 + footprints ; 25+ readers



HEY Guys... time to celebrate... a milestone... today, 17th May 2011, my blog has received more than 13000 footprints.. and more than 25 readers has subscribed it through RSS feed.....

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