should yugyag be out of closet

Hello All,

I am 35 year old now. And since last few months, I am contemplating if I should be out? Believe me, I am completely confused. Let me write down below pointers in favour and against and brainstorm with you all.

Pointers for OUT.
1. Will feel comfortable.  As on date, don't know why but feel claustrophobic.
2. Will be able to ask my boyfriend to stay at my house openly.
3. Will work for LGBT community without any inhibitions.

Pointers for remaining a closet
1. Why unnecessarily create chaos at home.  Mom at this old age may not be able to accept my gayism.
2. How will my friends react to it.
3. My relatives may outcast me, or deliberately start avoiding me and my family.

Can you guys give me your opinions.

Please remember that I stay in Delhi, India. It would have been easy if I was staying in Europe or US. But being in India has its own limitations.

Looking forward to your comments. .
You can also mail me at contactimyag@gmail.com

I want to do Research in LGBT issues

Hi all my readers,

I am 35 year old now. And I think I really want to work for my lgbt community, full time.  For this, I want to do my PhD in lgbt issues. But I need your help.

1. To let me know about institute where I can do this phd.
2. By letting me know the agencies who can sponsor my studies.

The topics I want to study are as follows

1. LGBT community in indian corporates - a study of diversity and inclusion.
2. Understanding life of older gay men in india. Specific to people above 50 yrs of age.

Please my readers. Help me in my endeavour.

Mail me at sdelhilove@gmail.com

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My new hobby, to sketch naked men... feedback awaited :)

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DISCLAIMER : the pics are not of gay person... this is random guy  whom I found sexy and clicked. If any one has problems with the uploaded pics, kindly let me know and i will remove these.

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DISCLAIMER : the pics are not of gay men... these are random people whom I found sexy and clicked. If any one has problems with the uploaded pics, kindly let me know and i will remove these. 

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Indjapink, Indian travel agency for gay men has announced few packages for goa, exclusively for gay men. Feel free to get in touch with them.

This is not a paid post.. i am posting it because i got this email from indjapink.

love to all
yug

waiting to hear from you


hi all,

I have 32 followers of this site through google and 86 readers through feedburner, i have daily more than 150 hits on this website. 

I would really like to hear from you, my friends so i can cater to you people in better manner.

Please write to me at : contactimyag@gmail.com

looking forward to your mails.

Love,
Yug

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these men are typical indian men.. whom i clicked just like that. they are no models, but i am sure, you would love the sex appeal of these men.

Sexy Underwears for my gay friends

Now all my gay friends can buy sexy innerwears from Gregg Homme at fetise .

Here are few of the sexy innerwears along with their price tags in INR. I am sure you would love to lure your sex dates or boy friends with this sexy innerwears.


  Stadium Jock Strap - Rs. 1290/- 

       

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Pimp Boxer Brief - Rs. 1999/-

 

confession - of my life


Hi Dear Readers, 

Today let me confess something about my life with all of you... this valentine day.....

Since last few years, a lot of people, including my friends are annoyed with me. Because I suddenly get lost, yes i just disappear from the public life, leaving others confused, hurt and angry. 

But i just can not help it. I think i am suffering from some kind of psychological issue. Unfortunately no one is able to diagnose it properly. 

I thought that I was suffering from depression, but then in August 2012, I got some tests done which confirmed that it is not depression. The doctor told me that this is some kind of personality disorder, which can be corrected by cognitive behavioral therapy. I was not sure, what I should do . As of now, I have not undergone this therapy. But this issue is hampering not only my personal life, but my professional life as well.

I just shut myself suddenly from everyone and doesn't feel like talking to anyone or meeting anyone. I sleep like 16 hours in a day. I switch off my phone, and love to live such anonymous life. My appetite gets down, and I lost interest in life completely. Because of this issue, I have lost good friends, and suffered in my career as well. Believe me, I don't like this.. I don't do this deliberately.. but I cant help.

Wish I get supportive friends and necessary guidance to get over this issue.

Love you all :)

Happy Valentine's Day - 2013

Valentine's day is a day, when one expresses his love to loved ones. But why just one day. Valentine's day  is everyday, whenever one meet his boy friend, its valentine day, whenever one enjoys with friends, its valentine's day. Whenever one feel happy and loved, its valentine's day.

Hope and wish we all, enjoy valentine's day, each day of this year.


HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

yugyag calendar with sexy indian male models


Hello All,



I, at Yugyag, with one of my friend is working on Yugyag calendar for 2013 featuring sexy indian guys,  presented  in their complete sensual essence. 


Feel free to send me a mail showing your interest so accordingly, we can plan on the production of the calendar. You can buy the calendar online as well as the hard copy can be sent to you through courier. 


Email your interest at contactimyag@gmail.com



The shown calendars here, are not published by Yugyag.. but we would try to do better than these. :)







Again I am on crossroads

Hmmm... So finally i have resigned again.. today. I know its nothing to do about me being gay. Its just about me being depressed with my life, and loosing my self confidence. Also this is about me not happy with my current career, and trying to breakfree in doing something which i really like.

I sent the stupid SMS to my boss, telling him that he should start looking for a replacement, as I would not be able to continue, due to my medical condition.

Now what am I gonna do. I dont know. I feel like writing.. writing.. and writing.. I am writing few blogs.

http://yugyag.blogspot.com
This is my personal gay blog. Writing about my life as a closet gay guy in india. This is more about me... as a gay guy. My thoughts, my opinions, my gay life. 

http://imyag.blogspot.com
http://imyag.blogspot.in
This is a gay informational blog. Writing about gay culture in India. This is more about gay community in India. Frankly speaking i would like to do something more concrete about LGBT community in india. 

I am also trying to initiate two more blogs.

1. About the bipolar disorder in India
2. About the life skills, employability, career advice, corporate news for professionals. 

As of now, i want to build my life around my writing, photography and travel. Yes! photography and travel are two new hobbies of mine. 

Now the most important question. MONEY! Where is this money gonna come from. I dont know. I am not even sure about it. 

Let me know about your opinions and ideas.. How I can leverage my blogs, and writing skills to earn money as well for survival.


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Also available is prostate massager for gay men.. 
If interested, send me a mail at contactimyag@gmail.com and i will provide you more details


Bipolar Disorder To A Gay Guy


Bipolar Disorder :) :(

Congratulations... your best pal here, is just diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. Now I saw this coming. Since last one week, I was not able to go to office. Reason - there was No Reason. Yes, can you imagine, there was no reason of me behaving in this weird way. Though, since last one year, I was the best employee in my department, and suddenly I went blank. I shut my phones off, with just a stupid message to my boss, that I am on leave due to some illness, will speak to you once I am OK. I slept slept and slept, my appetite went to toss. My mom was worried for me. I am sure, she has cried for me too. At her age, I never wanted to give her more problems. 

Finally my family coaxed me in seeing a doctor and I went to a homeopath who also visits VIMHANS, one of the best medical institute for neuro and brain related issues. This guy heard me for half an hour. And then pronounced me with BIPOLAR DISORDER.. I studied more on net, and think I have bipolar disorder II.

Great, so my family now has to deal, not only with my gayness  but also with  bipolar disorder . WOW.. U know, i spoke to few of my gay friends, and they told me that they also have such phases when they just shut down themselves. But are they all suffering from similar disease.  Do you think, this disease is more common in gay people.  I am not sure.. 


May God be with all of my friends, and may they be with me..  I know I have killed lot of  friendships because of this shut down issue. There was a guy, with whom i was almost on the verge of relationship, and then i just hit this low phase, and i  snapped all ties with him for few days. and GONE... he was gone with the wind. Obviously who would like to have a boyfriend, who has such big mood swings. 


Even today, i have someone in my life, who is very special for me. He is not my boyfriend, but a brother someone who says he will always always there for me. He is a married guy, but even i like him very much. But i am not sure, how much will he be able to handle my mood swings. I have not spoken to him since last one week, and he has been patient uptill now.. but uptill when.. i dont know. 


I am intelligent, i know the pros and cons. but then this is not in my hand. I feel as a puppet due to such chemical imbalances in my brain. I feel helpless. But i wanna fight, atleast today.. i do wanna put a brave face and fight against this problem. 


I tried searching, but didn't find any support group here in India. I wont mind creating one support group here in India for all bipolar disorder gay guys.. Where we can share our experiences, and we can support each other.

If you want to discuss anything more on this topic, feel free to reach me on my mail ID... sdelhilove@gmail.com

PS :     Hey guys, please.. I have not gone MAD.. i m just another person suffering from bipolar disorder, and I need your support more than often. So please be around. I like you visiting my blog. I like your comments. I LOVE YOU ALL.

My kind of gay guy


So many people ask me what kind of person am i looking for.. so here is a brief of what i m looking for. Obviously, the wants will never end.. but still, i believe that even if the guy pass the below criteria.. he is good enough for me.

1. Who is not feminine at all... (nothing against feminine gays still thats my preference)

2. Someone within my age group. ( I m 34 yo as on date.. so from 27 to 40 is my age group) No oldies or kiddos. I am looking for love.. dont want to work as a caretaker .



3. Someone who is professional.. yes it matters, if i have to introduced to my family and friends someday.. i prefer someone professional.


4. A guy, who understands you, is frank with you.. and little honest as well. :)


5. And Yes.. the guy shud be more top or TOP.. though i love to finger the ass of other guy.. but apart from that i am more bottom.


6. Obviously sex is the most important part of any gay relationship.... but i dont want my boy to use me like a sex toy.. for me sex is meditation, its a soulful experience.

PS: and yes.. he may not resemble the guy like the one above.. i m ok with next door boy look kind of men. :)

If any of your thinks that you are fitting the above mentioned preliminary criteria.. then we can spend more time together understanding each other...and take things to next level.

Wat Say Guys... ?

Ashwin and Avi - Gau couple together for 13 years



Yesterday news papers in india published a prominent story about Ashwin, a gay guy whose father is homophobic. Ashwin is staying with his partner Avi since 1999, last 13 years. 

There are hundereds of people who are homophobic and do not accept the sexuality orientation of their kids. But then what was special about this case, which has taken such a prominent place in media. 

Ashwin, is son of BCCI president, N Srinivasan. That is the only reason why this story has come into prominence. Also Ashwin along with his boyfriend was recently jailed and now Ashwin has alleged that his homophobic father is getting all this done against him and his boyfriend. Even the headline is BCCI chief's gay son. Why we want to bring his father's working status. If Ashwin would have been son of a just another person, would these news be getting the same prominence. NO. 

In the whole story, i like one best thing.. All newspapers have reported that Ashwin and his boyfriend have been together since 1999. That means since last 13 years, they both are together. Now this is some achievement in gay world. 

Being a gay, I know how gay guys break up on petty things. How easy it is to find sex outside, which does not encourage, but still,an important factor for gay guys non commital attitude.

Also the trust levels are very low in gay guys.

After all these issues, the two being together for last thirteen years is an achievement.

My congratulations to Ashwin and Avi. We all are with you guys. Dont be afraid, you are our role models.

YUGYAG SALUTES YOU !!!


for More click on http://www.dailymail.co.uk/indiahome/indianews/article-2148966/Gay-harassed-BCCI-chiefs-son-says-homophobic-dad-set-police-assault-lover-Mumbai-bar.html


Ten Reasons why he just stopped talking !




Why he just stopped talking ???


Don't you think, this seems line which we all can identify with. But why? Why this happens..
HERE ARE TEN REASONS AS PER ME... 
 Feel free to add more....

1. Its a waste of time to talk any more. No benefit.. neither sex.. nor emotional bonding.
2. He has taken advantage of me, I loved him so much... and he just used me for physical pleasure.

3. We just grew apart. Some how we both don't feel the need to talk to each other.

4. When i talk to him, i miss all the good times we spent together. Lets stop talking.. and save myself from this hurt.

5. I got to know, that he is not only talking to me, but also with ten other guys. Its better to give him time for other nine guys.

6. Everytime I talk to him, he asks me favours - monetary as well as others.

7. I miss him too much, but my ego doesnt let me talk to him.

8. Why should i talk to him, what has he given me till date...except hurt..

9. I miss him so much.. if i talk to him.. i will miss him more.

10. He doesnt understand me.. its better stop talking...

Gay Poetry - my life..


in rahon mein tum mujhe aaj fir dekh lo
koi mujhe inhi raston par fir chod gaya
woh kehte the pyaar karte hain humse
na jane yun pal bhar mein woh pyaar kahan kho gaya
itne bure hum nahin yeh hum bhi jaante hain
fir bhi kyun jeevan hamara yun tanha ho gaya

इन  राहों में तुम मुझे आज फिर देख लो 
कोई मुझे इन्ही रास्तों पर फिर छोड़ गया 
वोह कहते थे प्यार करते हैं हमसे 
ना जाने यूँ पल भर में वोह प्यार कहाँ खो गया 
इतने  बुरे हम नहीं, यह हम भी जानते हैं 
फिर भी क्यूँ जीवन हमारा यूँ तनहा हो गया 

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