my blog stats.....
Hey all, its four years now since i am writing this blog. today there are 32 subscribers to my blog.. and below are the statistics of last four years.... Yes this motivates me to write more.. for myself... for you all..
me myself yugyag
Why? Why? Why am i so emotional...
Why I always feel that world will be functioning as per me. World is not my slave... who will obey my orders.
Why i feel, that if a guy is a gud friend.. he wud always remain so.. And yes the biggest stupidity is.. when the guy says,
"I love you so much.. that i am scared of loving you, so now i will neither talk to you, nor meet you, cause I love you the most.."
Dont you think its the biggest stupidity, foolishness.. And specially when it is coming from a guy, whom i really like very much.. just as a friend.. cause he is gonna get married soon.
I also read a very nice thought on one of the PR profiles.. Its so true.. specially for me...
There's always a little emotion behind every 'I don't care'; intent behind every 'just kidding'; and a little pain behind every 'all's good'. Therefore, if you cannot understand my silence, you would never be able to understand my words.....
YUGYAG Reader's feedback
I received a mail from one of my readers on 20th December, as in response to my write up "Life has become fun" It was really nice to read such feedbacks. I have been in touch with this reader, through emails now. And its great to know him, and interact with him. It always results in exchange of nice ideas and mutual learning. I am uploading his mail post his approval only.
Thanks for your mails M al - Fakir... I really like interacting with you. This couplet is for you meaning, even travelling unknown paths, people can become friends.. but you are just a part of my soul, who got separated from me long back...
रास्ते अनजाने हो, फिर भी मुसाफिर दोस्त बन जाते हैं
तुम तो मेरी रूह का एक ज़र्रा हो जो कल शायद मुझसे जुदा हो गया था
So sweet of you for updating the blog. Thank you for a nice write up and in sweet, emotion charged but simple language.
A very moving narration. But it maintains the romance and sanctity of gay love. I cannot convey to you my feelings about this brief and matter of fact story except that you stirred a lot of memories.
Sitting thousands of mile away in Canada I was moved by your story and desires. Had you been here near about I would have met you to exchange experiences, share frustrations or disappointments and thus lighten our burdens that erode the soul and make life bearable. I was reminded of a Persian couplet but I do not know if you know the language. If I am able to render it suitably in English I will send it to you.
I hope you succeed in finding what you are looking for - a sincere, honest, selfless and loving companion and live happily ever after.
- M al-Fakir, Canada
MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS..
WISHING ALL MY READERS
A MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Enjoy your christmas.. with these pictures...
Hope the next year brings prosperity and happiness in life of all.. See you guys in next year..
And yes, please comment.. cause it shows that you are reading my blog.. and i also get motivated to post more :)
Life has become fun..
Life has become fun.. yes..
Today I met a friend..he is a friend.. just a friend.. but fine, we planned a sex date today.
We met, he lit candles in the room, played romantic songs.. and just made love with me.. It was not sex, it was pure love. We only did above the waist.. nothing below..but it was love. We had a lip lock, licked each other's tongues, licked each others arms, arm pits, wen the tongue touched nipples, back, nose, eyes, ears, foot, butthole... It was awesome..
It was an emotional moment for me. But then he also told me that he made a bet with one of our mutual friend, that he will make me crazy for him, so that i would be forced to say "love you". I did...and believe me, it was really true.. because he didnt treat me like a sex toy. He did it, to give me the satisfaction. Most of the guys i have met, are generally want me to give them satisfaction. The guys i have met, are generally selfish... But then this guy, treated me like a guy, he showed genuine interest in me, and my body.. somehow he touched my soul.. and i thank him for it.
I dont know, when i will get my real lover, but now i think i have realised to enjoy such one night stands as well. Its better not be emotional, just enjoy, and forget it. But in such one night stands, i never get hardon. I never get too excited, Because deep down in my heart what i want is different... i want someone with whom i can get up in the morning. I can take care of him and he takes care of me. I dont want just a one night stand. But then sometimes, just for a body touch... i do one night stand as well.
This year is gonna end soon.. hope i get my stable guy soon...
* this post is dedicated to one of my reader from allahbad, who got in touch with me, and asked me to write my experience on blog, as i didnt update it since long now . So here it is for you my sweetheart. I love all my readers. And thanks for reading my blog. If you want to get in touch with me, you can send me a mail at sdelhilove@gmail.com
THIS IS ME... just few lines..
sometimes serene..
sometime stormy..
sometimes looking forward just for sex...
sometimes looking for a stable relationship...
sometimes thinking.. there is no point of logging on PR any more.. it makes me more hollow.. sometimes just logging on PR as a habit..
Sometimes waiting for the right soul in my life..
sometimes thinking.. there is no point of logging on PR any more.. it makes me more hollow.. sometimes just logging on PR as a habit..
Sometimes waiting for the right soul in my life..
sometimes thinking there is no right soul waiting for me anywhere..
THIS IS ME....
THIS IS ME....
Hope someday my life gets more stability, once i get a soulmate.. who is mine.. completely mine.
Guidance.... given for a newbie gay :)
Hmmm.. today i saw a status message of 23 year old guy.. which was like this...
"guys m new here...so guide me..i need guidance"
I replied him as below... any suggestion...
guidance for what dude.... its upto u.. i wud suggest you to be little cautious... but then again its ur choice... to be cautious or not..
generally ppl dont distribute their phone numbers to all... be discretionary on that..
have heard a lot about ppl coming to ur place and picking things up.. so dont ever take anybody to your house if u have not been chatting with him since long.
u r 23.. if u r mature enough to realise ur sexuality.. u r mature enough to judge people as well.
ENJOY SEX :) and ENJOY being gay..
all the best.. for this adventurous journey with lots of ups and downs...
Homosexuality in birds.... made me think
Today, i read a report about homosexual nature of birds and this was written in bold....
Same-sex pairs of monogamous birds are just as attached and faithful to each other as those paired with a member of the opposite sex.
You all can read the complete report " Homosexual zebra finches form long-term bond "
But it forced me to think... As humans, are we really worse than birds, when it comes to homosexuality. Yes, i agree... times are changing. Homosexuality doesn't mean just about physical sex, its about finding a right mate for the life time.. its about the right kind of a person to spend your time with, to spend your life with.
Still, for almost 80% of homosexual people, it just boils down to SEX...
PLACE is one of the most important factor for meeting homosexuals. Why? becuase place ensures sex....
When... when will we all realise that homosexuality is not just about sex.. yes sex is a very important part of it. But it means, much more than that.. it means being with a person, who understands you better... it means being with another guy, who thinks like you only.. and with whom u can better identify yourself.. .it means being yourself.. without thinking what the women wants.... it means standing for the things I like.. and not just doing what my woman expects from me..
Homosexuality for me is being MYSELF....
what about you?
Lucknow has good looking guys.. :)
Hmm.... i love my friends. They are really so considerate. One of my friend who has gone to lucknow has text me that there are some good looking guys in the gomti market of lucknow. Though, he was not sure, if those guys were available or not. As you all know, how desperate I am for a constant guy in my life, I replied to him that he should find someone for me from Lucknow.. and yes he is free to try them before finalising them for me.
LOL..
Jokes apart.. I have never been to lucknow. But even on PR there is a guy from lucknow who became my friend. He seems decent... Does lucknow really have some good looking guys.. Do I have a follower from Lucknow on yugyag, who can confirm about good looking men of Lucknow.
What about delhi. Why delhi is facing this summer drought or is it just me? No decent guys, to fell in love with...
Me.. and the crying baby.. started again..
so untill next time..
SEE YA ALL.. and ENJOY wherever you are...
Me...Myself...
ok..
I know, this is a gay blog, but then this blog is all about me, what i think, what i feel. And hence i have all right to write anything in it. So let me write something, which is serious. Which affects my life. I don't know, if same problem affects anybody else too.
But, I am not going through a great phase. Actually, this is cyclical. It happens all the time. I don't know if this is something to do my sexuality or this is just a psychological problem.
I am depressed, not exactly depressed too. But i need some exciting work to work on. I need a great stimulant. I feel as if all the world is making fun of me, and that makes me sad.
I am too ambitious. I make so many plans, but then somewhere down the line, the plans do not work, as per my expectations. The problem is in plan, or in the execution or just in me. I am not able to resolve this.
I know my weaknesses.
I need lots and lots of unconditional love. This problem is affecting my professional life too. Cause i need this from my professional environment, which is not possible in today's times. It is the most ideal situation, which anybody would love to work in. But my problem is, I just can not .. just can not take any pressure, if i know that my boss or my colleagues do not like me. I need to be part of the group. My association need is too high. And i don't know how to take care of it.
As of now, i have left my job.. or whatever freelancing work i was doing. I am not feeling happy. I know i have lots and lots of potential But then everything wasted because of my emotional status.This problem is affecting my career, my future.. and unfortunately, i am not able to do anything about it.
I dont know if any of my reader has solution to this problem.
I know, this is a gay blog, but then this blog is all about me, what i think, what i feel. And hence i have all right to write anything in it. So let me write something, which is serious. Which affects my life. I don't know, if same problem affects anybody else too.
But, I am not going through a great phase. Actually, this is cyclical. It happens all the time. I don't know if this is something to do my sexuality or this is just a psychological problem.
I am depressed, not exactly depressed too. But i need some exciting work to work on. I need a great stimulant. I feel as if all the world is making fun of me, and that makes me sad.
I am too ambitious. I make so many plans, but then somewhere down the line, the plans do not work, as per my expectations. The problem is in plan, or in the execution or just in me. I am not able to resolve this.
I know my weaknesses.
I need lots and lots of unconditional love. This problem is affecting my professional life too. Cause i need this from my professional environment, which is not possible in today's times. It is the most ideal situation, which anybody would love to work in. But my problem is, I just can not .. just can not take any pressure, if i know that my boss or my colleagues do not like me. I need to be part of the group. My association need is too high. And i don't know how to take care of it.
As of now, i have left my job.. or whatever freelancing work i was doing. I am not feeling happy. I know i have lots and lots of potential But then everything wasted because of my emotional status.This problem is affecting my career, my future.. and unfortunately, i am not able to do anything about it.
I dont know if any of my reader has solution to this problem.
Gay Date ended in embarrassement
You just can not imagine the embarrassment i had to go through today.
I met a guy, a old time friend. But we met for a sex date today like after four years. We didn't want it to be sex sex date sorts.. But we both wanted to be close, physically. When i reached his place, he was sleeping on his bed. I asked him, he would like a good massage and he got ready .
I asked him to turn on his stomach, and started with his lower back, gentle long strokes that go upto his neck. I was doing this while he was still wearing all his clothes. My hands were inside his shirt for doing such a massage. Gradually, I opened all buttons of his shirt, and removed it. Now my strokes started from his lower back, his neck , and until i moved my hands on his nicely built arms and then i hold his hands, like this i was lying flat on top of him.
Gradually i pushed down his jeans, and start my strokes from his butt crack. My friend's body is so soft. I was loving the long slow strokes on his body, and he was loving it too. Gradually i removed his jeans, and then i kneaded his butt cheeks. They were so juicy. I have not removed his underwear, but my hands were inside it, touching his butt hole, and going even below... holding his balls. He was definitely on a high... because i was getting slow moans from him. I give a nice massage on his butt crack, gradually putting pressure on his butt hole. I also hold both his butt cheeks together, i was sure he was enjoying me playing with his body.
Then i massaged his legs. I squeezed each foot before giving his legs a nice massage.
Gradually, i removed his undies. Now my strokes were starting from his legs and went uptill his neck, all the way up his arms till i hold his hand. He was having a very nice time.. and i saw his hard dick below him.
I removed all my clothes but undies. I wanted it to be a tease. I turned him on his back, and started on his chest, and nipples. I sat on his stomach, with his dick touching my butt hole. I hold his face with both my hands, and squeeze it with my hands. I put pressure on his head, which he loved. i put my fingers in his ears. Now my mouth was on his, and we were eating each other's lips.
He pushed my head down, and i took his throbbing tool in my watery mouth. Still my one hand was on his chest, stroking hairs on his chest, and putting my finger in his tummy hole. ..he was on seventh heaven. He was so excited after this dry massage that he just wanna fuck my mouth like anything.
He has a decent size cock but little thick for me. He suddenly started fucking my mouth like never before. His strokes were pretty hard for my throat, and his dick was long enough to reach back of my throat. He was all sexcited, and so was I.
And then suddenly, I PUKED....Puked on his dick, on his trim pubic hairs,as well as his stomach.
He felt warm liquid on him, and he asked... " i didn't come".. i was like... what to do.. i said "no. you didn't".
But then i didn't know how to tell him what happened. He opened his eyes, and thank God, he got the dirty smell, and asked me. "You puked?" I nodded my head in affirmation, and then tried collecting all that i deposited on him, in my hand and rushed to the bathroom.
I used lot of tissues to wipe him, i even wiped him with a soap.
I was really embarrassed. For sure, his dick went limp.. And our sexual enjoyment ended then and there.
Still he was very very sophisticated, not to say anything to me. He behaved in a very gentlemanly manner.
This was so funny. I never puked before ever.. but perhaps, i never took any dick so deep in my throat.
I hope, i will be able to deep throat him next time easily without throwing again.
I met a guy, a old time friend. But we met for a sex date today like after four years. We didn't want it to be sex sex date sorts.. But we both wanted to be close, physically. When i reached his place, he was sleeping on his bed. I asked him, he would like a good massage and he got ready .
I asked him to turn on his stomach, and started with his lower back, gentle long strokes that go upto his neck. I was doing this while he was still wearing all his clothes. My hands were inside his shirt for doing such a massage. Gradually, I opened all buttons of his shirt, and removed it. Now my strokes started from his lower back, his neck , and until i moved my hands on his nicely built arms and then i hold his hands, like this i was lying flat on top of him.
Gradually i pushed down his jeans, and start my strokes from his butt crack. My friend's body is so soft. I was loving the long slow strokes on his body, and he was loving it too. Gradually i removed his jeans, and then i kneaded his butt cheeks. They were so juicy. I have not removed his underwear, but my hands were inside it, touching his butt hole, and going even below... holding his balls. He was definitely on a high... because i was getting slow moans from him. I give a nice massage on his butt crack, gradually putting pressure on his butt hole. I also hold both his butt cheeks together, i was sure he was enjoying me playing with his body.
Then i massaged his legs. I squeezed each foot before giving his legs a nice massage.
Gradually, i removed his undies. Now my strokes were starting from his legs and went uptill his neck, all the way up his arms till i hold his hand. He was having a very nice time.. and i saw his hard dick below him.
I removed all my clothes but undies. I wanted it to be a tease. I turned him on his back, and started on his chest, and nipples. I sat on his stomach, with his dick touching my butt hole. I hold his face with both my hands, and squeeze it with my hands. I put pressure on his head, which he loved. i put my fingers in his ears. Now my mouth was on his, and we were eating each other's lips.
He pushed my head down, and i took his throbbing tool in my watery mouth. Still my one hand was on his chest, stroking hairs on his chest, and putting my finger in his tummy hole. ..he was on seventh heaven. He was so excited after this dry massage that he just wanna fuck my mouth like anything.
He has a decent size cock but little thick for me. He suddenly started fucking my mouth like never before. His strokes were pretty hard for my throat, and his dick was long enough to reach back of my throat. He was all sexcited, and so was I.
And then suddenly, I PUKED....Puked on his dick, on his trim pubic hairs,as well as his stomach.
He felt warm liquid on him, and he asked... " i didn't come".. i was like... what to do.. i said "no. you didn't".
But then i didn't know how to tell him what happened. He opened his eyes, and thank God, he got the dirty smell, and asked me. "You puked?" I nodded my head in affirmation, and then tried collecting all that i deposited on him, in my hand and rushed to the bathroom.
I used lot of tissues to wipe him, i even wiped him with a soap.
I was really embarrassed. For sure, his dick went limp.. And our sexual enjoyment ended then and there.
Still he was very very sophisticated, not to say anything to me. He behaved in a very gentlemanly manner.
This was so funny. I never puked before ever.. but perhaps, i never took any dick so deep in my throat.
I hope, i will be able to deep throat him next time easily without throwing again.
13000 + footprints ; 25+ readers
HEY Guys... time to celebrate... a milestone... today, 17th May 2011, my blog has received more than 13000 footprints.. and more than 25 readers has subscribed it through RSS feed.....
Lets Make YUGYAG a BIGGER SUCCESS
BATH HOUSE...... PART II.....
PART I
I think i know him, i always knew him.. since time immemorial.
But then we never talked to each other, we never met. But yes, as soon as i saw him today, at the gay steam bath house.. i just got attracted towards him.
I kissed him. with his tongue caressing inside of my mouth. His hands were so comfortable holding my back, as if they were always there... from time immemorial.
And then two more guys entered the steam room... we both paused for a moment, but then continued in our own love making. Love making which seemed so long due... love making which was so natural for both of us together, love making which we both know, would take us together to the next level......
PART II
And then suddenly he got up... and walked off. As if he never knew me.. What was this? Didn't i suck him properly? Why he behaved in this manner. At one moment, he was so much into me, and suddenly in this second moment, he has moved so far.. as a stranger. Whats this? Am i dreaming. NO. I am not. Its just him, he is like this only. He moved to the showers, i wanted to join him in the shower, but there was just one shower. I waited behind him. I asked him, if he wants me to wash his back. He saw me... with his cold eyes, and replied a curt "NO". I never knew what he is upto. He completed his bath, and asked me to use the shower. I was still watching him, drying himself with the towel. It was strange, how he was so comfortable, being so aloof. No one can believe, that just few minutes back we both were making love.
He walked outside, and left me alone in the shower.... dripping.. with water... and with feelings, which i was not able to define...
VIRTUAL SEX.....
1: hi
THE GUY: hi
1: u have very nice chest..
1: do u love ur nipples to be sucked?
THE GUY: I have other things also quite nice
1: u sitting naked?
THE GUY: nope
1: show me some other nice things too...
1: pls...
THE GUY: ok
1: wow nice biceps
1: u have nice smile too.
THE GUY: thanks
1: i m sure u have lot of gay frnds.. who love to get fuked by you
1: show me ur dick pls..
THE GUY: u really wanna see it?
1: yes
1: please
THE GUY: wait
1: ok
1: hmm u got a hard on...
1: wow
1: i wud love to eat ur dick frm outside ur shorts
1: so u get a really HARD dick..
1: luve to lick ur precum
1: hey remove ur shorts frm ur dick. Your shorts are hanging on your erect dick.. wow
1: wow.. the big black moster is out..
1: u have a THICK DICK..
1: show me sideways.
1: yes.. wow.. you have a thick dick... i am sure fucked lot of assholes..(khub chudayi kar ke mota hua hai..tumhara lund...)
1: Is it waiting for my mouth or my butt hole (mere munh ka wait kar raha hai.. ya meri gaand ka...)
THE GUY: Both (dono ka)
1: Please arrange for place
1: Would love to suck your dick (khoob choosunga tera lauda.)
1: I also got a solid hard on man. (yaar.. mera lauda bhi tan ke sakth ho gaya)
1: You have a great body (tumhari body mast hai.. )
1: hhmmmmmmmm.
1: give it in my mouth dude (de.. mere moonh mein..)
1: Let me put my tongue on head of ur dick (chat loon tere lauda ka topa..)
1: hmmmm.. mast maal hai re tera..
1: seriously..
1: Feeling like coming right now to your place and hug your sexy body (man to kar raha hai.. abhi
aajaon.. aur teri body se lipat jaaoon)
1: would love to suck your black balls. and put my lips on your asshole (tere tattoon ko chuson.. teri gaand mein apna munh de doon... )
1: Would love to suck your ass and crack (aur teri gaand ko jeeb se chaatoon)
1: Are you going to come soon (maal nikaal raha hai)
1: Give me your dick my man. (apna lauda mujhe de de...)
1: tear my ass, man and make me yours (daal de meri gaand mein.. aur mujhe apna bana le..)
1: Fuck me hard my love.. slowly.. let me enjoy it too.. (chod....mere raja...magar dheere
dheere..chod...)
1: hello.. have you come? (maal nikal gaya ki nahin)
THE GUY: yes.. (nikal liya)
1: hmmmm...
THE GUY: ok Bye..... dear.. see you next time..
SPA for men
SPA FOR MEN...
http://www.kalphkaya.com/
in new delhi.. enjoy a massage, as well as sona and steam bath with other men :) pretty open environment.. leave your shyness at home :)
BATH HOUSE.....
I think i know him, i always knew him.. since time immemorial.
But then we never talked to each other, we never met. But yes, as soon as i saw him today, at the gay steam bath house.. i just got attracted towards him.
I kissed him. with his tongue caressing inside of my mouth. His hands were so comfortable holding my back, as if they were always there... from time immemorial.
And then two more guys entered the steam room... we both paused for a moment, but then continued in our own love making. Love making which seemed so long due... love making which was so natural for both of us together, love making which we both know, would take us together to the next level......
GAY MEN... ONE MORE RISK.... CANCER
Here it goes man.... now gay men are more prone to cancer then others...
even cancerous cells are biased against gay men..... what would you say?
http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/life-style/health-fitness/health/Gay-men-at-higher-risk-of-cancer/articleshow/8207224.cms
YUGYAG ON FACEBOOK....
Dear All,
Your yugyag is on facebook.. please like this page, so we can have our own username of the page...
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Yugyag/101910856565250
Regards
Requisites for Good Lasting Gay Relationship
Lasting gay relationship is like a mirage.. something that we can only yearn for.. Still here are few tips, which i feel can ensure a long and lasting relationship.
1. If both ppl r able to fulfill each other's needs....physical as well as psychological.
2. If both r attracted towards each other....attraction may not b just physical. but there should be attraction...
3. If both are on same mental level....it shud not happen that for one relationship means more psychological whereas for the other it means more physical.
4. If both are open to each other, and accept each other with their strengths and weaknesses.
I liked you... but....still waiting
I met you neither on a stormy night, nor at a train station. It was such a simple meet, when we just came across each other at this retail store. My gaydar was on...and somehow i knew you liked me too.
But then, we didn't knew each other. Still we got connected, a spiritual connection. A connection which even we didn't realize at that time.
Today on internet, gay website, i was happy to see your profile. But then you already have a partner. Gosh.. why i always meet people who are either already committed, or who are more bottoms just like me.
Dont worry, this is not for any particular person.. just random thoughts which i wanted to pen down here.
I am alone, in this Hollow Square Room
I woke up and saw the dirty glasses,
I remember, we had fun in the night,
But then, he left, without even saying good bye,
And i am alone,in this hollow square room.
I met another and saw the twinkle in his eyes,
we talked, talked and talked, and had coffee too,
but then suddenly he told me that he think we not compatible,
And I am again alone, in this hollow square room.
The new day brought a new guy,
I knew, he is the one, but then he was not ready for commitment,
I decided to wait, Being silent and patient is how i show my commitment,
and then one day, he got another guy, who forced him in this relationship,
And I am left alone, in this hollow square room.
I don't know how i will break the walls of this room,
I don't know how to make someone fell for myself,
Now, sometimes i feel, I don't even know how to love.
Still my thoughts are pink, in this hollow square room.
Still looking......
Its ages since i have written here. Actually, was busy... busy in nothing... thats how life is too.. busy doing nothing..
I was so sure, that i would get someone, someone who would be mine. There are atleast three guys, who came in my life since last few months, somehow me as well as the other person felt too as if we are compatible. But still, things are not materializing.
Somehow, everytime before we get close, we move apart... dont know whats the problem. But now i am really frustrated because of this..
Any solution to my problem. How to hook up a good guy for the long term.
Another new year, Another year of resolutions.
The poetry, from me to you all....
Another new year, Another year of resolutions.
Another year of wait for the special person in your life.
Another year of meeting so many people, in hope of Mr. right.
Another new year, Another year of resolutions.
Another year of rejecting people, or getting rejected.
Another year of feeling sad, alone and dejected.
Another new year, Another year of resolutions.
Another year of writing stuff on this blog, in hope someone would understand me,
Another year of missing all friends, who have grown apart, because of me.
Another new year, Another year of resolutions.
I am sure, this year would be brighter, and happy,
This year, I am going to live me life on my terms.
I am HAPPY & GAY.....
I am your's only YUGYAG.
PS: Don't worry! I am not gonna be out ... I am a closet forever... :)
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